I was browsing thru Friendster and found some of my secondary pals. Some of which I was very close to. It's sad when I read their testimonials. Made me realise how much I've drifted from them. We used to be a group called 'Party of Five'. We did everything together and we were so close. I used to be very close to Huijin back then in secondary school. But all it took was one stupid argument and I drifted away from her. While the 4 of em still hangs out and remains good friends till now, I went separate ways. I'm only a friend, no longer a part of the clique. I'm still in contact with Shirley and Ydah but not with Huijin and Farhanah. We're more like acquaintances now.

It's sad isn't it? I wish I was still with them. Now when I see her, I couldn't even call out to her. It just feels so weird. Like we're strangers now. I rather pretend not to see her because I dun feel like I know her anymore. I feel like an outcast...

Anyway on a brighter note, my programming is starting to work out altho' I still got a lot to do. And I'm running outta time. Deadline is just around the corner and I still haven't started on my other projects. Damn.

Next month, I'll have to start mugging for the exams already and I hope I have sufficient time to study. Or else I'll just go mad.

People change. I just wish people could see that. I'm no longer the stuck-up faced girl. No, wait, not true. I'm still stuck with the stuck-up face but I'm definitely not stuck up! Ok, I haven't change much. I'm still fierce. I'm still talkative. I'm still not that sociable. I still don't smile that much to the public. But I still find that silly anyway. I remember my friend commented on me saying that I look like a straight ruler cos I never smile. Darn that asshole.

But really, give me a chance. Get to know me better and you'll get the best of me... I promise. I just need to instill that trust once more to people cos I've been broken before and that explains why I back away from people. I dunno who to trust anymore...



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