Messy day. A mass of mind destruction. Shocked? Bewildered? Sad? Disappointed? Angry? Fed-up? Infatuated? Deluded? Pissed off? Lifeless? !@$^#*.

I dunno how to start, really. School 1st. Nothin new. Errors, errors and more errors. Supposed to put the damn report into a ring file but binded it w/o reading the Student Guide (which my cp lecturer repeated a million times, like we're dumb or sth). I'm tired of their crap. How some can just get help with a snap of a finger. How some get credit for doin nuthin. How some will do just about ANYTHIN to get an A and it's not like as if they work for it. Kudos to you yah!

Still pissed off with yesterday. Saw him today. Again... tt flair of ignorance or whatever it is to him. I was ready to give him a smile but right at tt moment, he looked away from me. Wha... what, what was that? If it's so damn hard to say hi, just give me a smile ah. What's so difficult about that? Don't tell me he don't recognise me... cos if he really don't, then I'm bound to be speechless.

Met up with Ydah. I just had to get away from that place. I realised that I need my dosage of laughter at least once in a while. She gave me just that and cracked me up with her tales from her comedic-life. It was fun. I had fun. Until...

Until I received a call from a friend. I was shocked. I shall not mention what or who. Cos I respect her and it's hard to believe but we're all human, no one's perfect. Was rather awed but at least she told me about it. I just hope she'll quit it asap. Then talked for a few hours on the phone about some stuff. Stuff that I can't bring myself to believe. Stuff relating to him and everythin. Guess I'll never know who he really is... but from what I hear so far, it's nuthin too amusing that he should be proud of.

But yah, I shall act indifferent about it. If he's playin me, I rather not know. If he thinks I'm like other bimbotic girls with a bitchy attitude to match, he's so wrong. I'm not like any of em. I don't have a pretty face or a vivacious body to offer but I do have sth much, much, much more worth it than all these temporary goodies.

The thin is... are you worthy of em?



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