Well, well, well. She has spoken. Ok so she says it's childish. And I assume she's "matured" enough to retaliate what she has read so far. If it didn't matter to her about what people think, then she shouldn't be bothered by it to actually blog about it right? But, oh well...

What was tt post about? About looking at yourself 1st before bitching about other ppl? Or was it about what she's learnt in life, what she's been taught and everythin, lecturing about ppl's attitudes and upbringing. Ok, you have your say. Fair enough. There's no guilty party here, everythin's over and done. Things happen and we saw who we really are. No need to cover up. As far as "(at least i considered you a genuine friend)" was concerned... yah I thought so too but I thought wrong. Yah, bet you thought the same thin too.

Friends (we were, supposedly) shouldn't work together. You wanted it. Badly. Till you got caught in it totally. And you got it. Well, that's fine cos I won't deny the fact that you are a hardworking girl. You do your work but often enough, you offered your work too. Not like we ask for it but more like, "I send you my copy? Then you can take a look at it." Sounds familiar? Well, if not take a trip down memory lane dear... sounds familiar too? I dunno... we humans are really capable of twisting our own words. We should be ashamed of ourselves.

A "genuine" friend saw a friend in trouble and was ignorant about it when she once said that, "I will help you cos I noe you put in alot of effort. I'll speak up for you. Don't you worry." Yah, bet you were genuine about that too. But wait, did you mention sth like, "i would help you cuz you sounded so stressed out i thought i would help but well according to me you didnt deserve any help cuz help is offered not demanded". Hmm... 2-faced? Like you said, God is watching. And God hears what is spoken, and what is not spoken.

I dun even wanna go into the "shouting/loud/respect" part man. I was sincere about our friendship up till a certain point of time. Everythin was gone in a split second. Yah you were my friend, my listening ear back then when we used to talk on the phone till the wee hours. You were my friend when you called me on my way to work that you were really sick, and you cried. I was touched. Really. Not only me, but also the rest of us were concerned about your health, your condition, your aches and mainly, about you. But incidents happened that has caused me and maybe some to retreat, think twice and drift away. I'm sorry. I can't pretend. I'm not good at that.

It's sad but maybe this is the best for us. To go our separate ways and lead our own lives without having to pretend, or to deny ourselves. Maybe God has planned all of these for a reason, to teach us the greatest lessons about life, in life itself. All those good memories will be missed. We've all grown out of it. Out of all the friendship crap cos we know now that we can't just trust anyone. We're not as naive anymore. You're damn right, it's childish.

Maybe in 10 years time, we would probably look back and laugh at today. Maybe we would put aside our differences and be friends once more cos we don't bear grudges yah? But it's unlikely. It's good to forgive and forget. Yah, easy to forgive but not to forget. True? As friends, we were great but too bad it didn't last. But you were my friend and I thank you for what you've done, whether good or bad.

All the best to you too. Adios amigos Natasha.

And as for me, I have already put it all behind me. It's nuthin to me now. We were angry, full of angst, but we're human and everythin that happened... history as of today.

Everyone else is giving their Thank-you speeches like it's the end of the world or sumthin. So, this is mine. Oh and how can I ever forget my other C23/33E mates. I hope we can still meet up, for a swim at Xin's place or just to chill once in a while. I'm gonna miss you guys (not the burping).

Of coz I won't forget you, Eve. You were the 1st friend I made in Yr 2 and hopefully we'll still keep in touch yah. You have been a great friend and hopefully we can still find some time together to sit at Starbucks with Mas to just chill and hangout ok? Some things only you can understand, only you and I could talk about. Esp about the politics in our class but it's gettin all passe already huh. Time to talk about sumthin new. Haha. Give me a call some day.

Some may hate you, some may love you but no matter what, your loved ones will always be there for you. Always.

This is a bloody long post. Angry I am not, just stating some points. May God forgive me.



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