I'm gonna just go on and on in today's post. I'll be surprised if there's even anybody who bothers to read my blog actually.

Ok, I mentioned tt I wud blog on tt stalker and so I shall. He didn't come today... whoa what I relief I tell ya.

He's from the Phillipines, he's scary, but he's quite gd-lookin actually. Only he's scary. If he hadn't try too hard to be friendly, my perspective of him could hv been different. Another colleague of his... well, mine too I guess, Alan, he's nice. He's got tt friendly, nice boy look and he is friendly. He's small, hv big eyes and adorable lookin. Haha. And he's a Phillipino too... so see, I'm not stereotyping. Different individuals altogether.

Oh, and the married guy I repeatedly mentioned earlier... is Winston. And to think that I thought having a crush on a guy who's attached is bad enough... This guy is married with 2 kids. Just what in the world was I thinkin? But hey, I only thought he's cute. That's all. Really.

Tmr, I'm gonna go grab myself a Cookies and Cream Milkshake and spent some quality time alone with my book so I can fully concentrate on it and catch up with myself at the same time. I need an "alone" time so I can divide myself from work and ppl for awhile. It really tires me, altho my life is pretty static rite now. Wake up, work, go home, eat, slp. Same ol' routine everyday. I don't even hv time for myself except for one weekend which is barely enough.

It's times like these that brings me back to the lonely realm. Where I feel like I need someone to fetch me from work, hv dinner with, think of before I doze off and see him the next day. I'm not talkin abt my dad here. Haha. Ya know what I mean. But sadly, again and again. I feel like Carrie Bradshaw from Sex and the City. Lovelorn and love-seeking modern woman who grows to be independant out of every ruins but still hopes for that one true love.

Being an adult really is tough. You have to deal with responsibilities, life, career, money, family, love... everythin. If only I could just erase 'love' from tt list, life would be much more easier...



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