Bad day today. Very bad. Till I met up with Bi and Ydah. Ydah does wonders with her de-stressing techniques. This mind felt free and easy. If only for awhile...

I don't even feel like blogging. Yes, it's no big deal I know. Just another shitty phase that I'm going thru. Disappointed? Yes. Expected? Yes. Immune to tt kind of treatmind? Sort of. And yet I still keep falling down. And now I hv to pick myself up again. There goes another one. I've told myself a million times before... 'Don't hope too much. Don't' but I never tried hard enough.

Guess I'm tired of it all. Sick and tired. Felt so stupid. But luckily this time, I didn't give in that much. At least, I found out before it's too late. That's so much for optimism. But it's just so frustrating and irritating when I think about it.

What can I say? Had about 30 min all to myself to do some silent thinking; flipped thru the pages in my mind and it's like watching a fast pace mini-movie tt keeps rewinding and forwarding to the incidents which I once thought was sweet.

All of that was bullshit. Bullshit. Maybe I misinterpreted it all, well tt's my fault but don't you worry, I shall leave you alone. That's just my style. Friends? Yes. Why not? I'm not that sore of a loser. I'm still the sweetest girl there. Haha. It's all a masquerade, an upfront with me laughing away and always smiling. But inside? Nobody knows it but me. Bleh. Nah, that's the Drama Mama talkin. It doesn't really matter lah. He was 'just passing by' anyway.

The difference between you and me is that I know my limits and I know when to stop esp when the mind is thinking of one but the heart is with another.

Unfortunately, I don't think that I'm even in any of them. It was just my wishful thinking...

You guys must be thrilled to see me fall flat on my face after going ga-ga over a guy. I deserve that. Once again.




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