I'm pissed off. I'm frustrated. I'm tired of hearing all those crap. You nvr get the facts right and you're always jumping to conclusions. You make me sound like I'm a worthless nothin, you make me feel like a piece of shit.

I'm tired of always being compared to her. Everytime issues lk these are bein brought up, you nvr fail to make me feel sore by comparing me to your FAVOURITE daughter. Yah you don't hv to guess who. It doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure that one out. It's always Tahirah this, Tahirah that, Tahirah everythin.

Yalah, she's the perfect one what. The smartest one, the thoughtful one, the good one... everythin lies in her. I'm always the bad one. The lousy one. The useless one. No matter what I do or say for this family, nothing EVER gets appreciated. All the good things I've done nvr gets credited for whereas for her, everythin she does is good. Whatever. I know I'm no good as a daughter, as the eldest sister and as a person. No gd as compared to her. As compared to the rest.

Whatever I do is wrong, and is nvr right. For all the things tt I've done, I've nvr asked for anythin in return. NEVER. I do it from the heart and what does it comes down to? Nothing. Me caring towards my sibs are nvr seen, my love towards you and mom are nvr felt, my responsibilities in this family are nvr appreciated.

Things I've nvr done before you always assume I did. All the ridiculous things you mentioned are all rubbish and are nvr true f.y.i. You think I hv a bf and tt I spend my money on him? Fine. You think I gv all my money to my friends? Fine. You think I nvr save? Fine. You think I'm a bitch? Fine. You think I fool ard? Fine. You think I nvr call home to inform you guys tt I'll be home late when I actually did but it just nvr got to you? Fine.

Think what you wanna think. I don't care anymore. I've been patient for far too long. This whole Tahirah-is-gd-in-everythin-why-can't-you-be-like-her crap is really wearing me out. You hv no idea tt what you just said hurt me so bad. You hv no idea all those things affect me emotionally. You think I'm made of stone, don't you? That you can throw to my face those mean words and think tt I won't take it to heart?

You don't know tt behind my strong upfront, tt I'm actually breaking down inside. I'm only putting a brave front just so they don't get affected as well. No. I don't blame her. Never did. I don't hate her. I just don't understand why you must do this to me, to us.

I used to be filled with hatred and envy but now I realised tt the reason why I'm gettin this unfair treatment is prob because I am not gd enough a daughter for you to be proud of. It has always been this way.

Whatever it is, I know you'll nvr be proud of me. No matter what I do, it's just not good enough.



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