I've decided to try my luck with SASCO. After much discussion, much thought and much much hesitation, I've finally decided to apply for a permanent position there.

Figured out tt I need to earn money in order to be able to study so the plan is to work for a few yrs... prob 1-2 yrs then with my bonus, it's enough for me to even go do umrah as well. Insya-allah.

Figured out you say? Shouldn't you hv figured that out like months ago? You must hv bumped yr head or sth. Tsk tsk tsk.

Sorry abt that. She likes to mumble and nag at herself so just ignore her, she'll go away.

Anyways, met Dakai on the train just now. Yes of all ppl, Dakai. He approached me on the train and it was a pleasant surprise really. All geared up in his army uniform... heheh. Told me Yeat lost alot of weight. Emphasizing on tt word 'alot'. Damn. I gotta see tt dude.

And as for him... what can I say. He still flirts with me. Treat it as a form of entertainment, I keep telling myself. It is entertainin esp when it's not one but a whole lot of em. Hahahahah. Nah kiddin. Not sayin tt I like flirtin but it just means tt I'm treatin him no different from any other guys there. It's better this way anyway. I'll let him do the thinkin.

And and... as for me, I'm currently enjoying my single status. It's pure freedom and I can like whoever as and when I like it. Heh heh. Loser. Is tt all I can think about? Nah. Am just treasuring this period of not bein committed to anythin or anyone specific except for my main priorities which is my family.

I guess partly, it is the fear of being committed somehow.



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