Just what the hell happened yesterday? It's too fast. No no. I dunno whether to laugh, cry or be surprised. Well, actually it's all rolled into one. I totally didn't expect that.

Yes, I admit you're cute. Cute, sweet, tall... But there's just no chemistry. Not yet at least. Ittakes time for me to really be comfortable with someone of the opp sex. Said you understand but this is only the 2nd day of yr supposed "courting" and you're driving me up the wall already.

Ey, are you crazy? Dah giler ke? You're mad. You didn't even gv me time to digest wat you said.

All in one day. I appreciate him being sincere and everythin but when I said we should go slow, he obviously didn't register tt in his head. Funny how he said he's busy, he didn't even hv time to eat but yet still able to flood my phone with his smses. Hmm...

He shouldn't hv told me what he told me so fast. Should wait a lil longer, at least after gettin to know me better. He's already freaked me out and this is only the beginning. Let me put him to the test. See if he can win my heart...

I can't say I'm attracted to him just as yet cos I barely know him. And he doesn't even know me that well so how could he say tt he's serious about me?! Ahh you're mad. You're bloody mad.

Say wanna go slow, develop feelings gradually *roll eyes* blah blah blah but sms me non-stop, every second. You didn't even gv me time to delete your previous msgs and now my inbox, for the very 1st time, has exceeded 40... THIS is very unnatural for me ok. Only those who know me well enough would understand.

I'm someone who likes to keep it down low. Someone with nothing much going on in my life. Shoot now I realise I like it that way. My life is simpler tt way. I'm so busy at work I dun hv the time to sms here, sms there ya know. Somehow I prefer my low profile life. I don't hv to worry abt hurting somebody else's feelings or watsoever. I dun understand myself sometimes... Say I want a relationship but I dun dare open up, dun dare commit, dun dare go further... then how like that?

Scared. I'm scared.



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