Today is a better day. I'm okay. Jia, Ayu, Xin... thnx for yr concern, I'm glad to hv friends lk you guys. Feel blessed enuf to hv frens who care at least.

I woke up, promised myself tt I'm not gonna let 'yesterday' bring me down today and left it all behind me as I walked out the door. I pushed tt hated thought away and went to work with a clear mind. As usual, music is my therapy as I silently groove to it.

Seeing the ppl here makes me happy. Being ard them makes me happy. I laughed and laughed, not wanting to think so much. But at the corner of my mind, I'm pending whether to go hm straight after work. After all tt's been said, I dun feel like seeing or talkin to em. You can call me a rebel or say tt I dun listen, I know you'll nvr understand but I just need a brk from all of you at home.

I've always been the odd one out, the outcast anyway so I'm immune to the feelin of bein left out so what difference does it make if I'm home or not, dead or alive. It doesn't matter.

See... I got carried away again. I'm sorry. Didn't mean to. Guess I'm still not over it. I'm sorry. Why can't they see me the way other ppl do? Sigh. Forget it. I'm tired of trying too hard.

I'm a happy girl. And tt's the way it should be.

Moving on...

- I miss him. A-hah. I do...

- It is only a pretence. Someone said to me today, "Your bf is lucky to hv you." I went, "Huh?" In my mind I was thinkin... yah indeed, only there's no such thin as the bf.



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