I am so darn sleepy. I couldn't keep my eyes open. It's terrible. I'm like falling asleep by the minute. Must. Stay. Awake.

Yesterday, went for this event meeting. Honestly, I don't know why I was there in the first place. I don't think I could contribute much to the play as much as I want to. I feel like I can't really do much. I might even have problems commiting myself to it. I had the urge to call Ydah and tell her that I wanna back out. Better to back now then to back out later, I thought since I can't really offer much. But then eventually I wanna see how this whole production would turn out and I thought maybe I should just hang on and see how it goes... Well, we'll see I guess.

Why? I wanted it so much but she won't let me have it. But for her... anything for her. She don't even hv to ask and you'll get it for her. I'm not even asking you to pay for anything. But why? I have feelings too you know. Bias. Well, not like I'm not used to it anyway. Yah whatever. Whatever makes you happy.

I'm tired.



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