If I'm not mistaken, hours ago, I was in quite a happy mood. But how amazing these mood swings are. What they can do to me. It just doesn't pay to be nice. I remember blogging about this a long time ago...

When you made an effort and be nice to someone, they always seem to take it for granted and not appreciate it at all. That's what's hurting. When we care and they don't. You feel, "Oh why did I even bother in the first place?" No? It's always like that and I hate that feeling.

And in this shitty workplace, there's alot who does that to you. By now, I should have been immune to this kinda feeling already. But honestly, no... altho' I may appear immune outside, but inside I feel like crap. Feel like telling the person off. It's sad, it's disappointing...

I think I'm too nice. I keep giving ppl chances and I give in too much sometimes. Sometimes, I feel dumb.

I'm like a balloon. I can hold on to you but if you don't hold on to me, and you let me go, whether you realise it or not... you're never gonna get me back.



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