Remember I said I think I'm in deep shit. Yah... well let me say that again. I think I'm in deep shit. What he said earlier... did he really meant it? He told me he was serious... if only, if only...

It's like we're teasing each other with the words we said. On my part, I can say it playfully and appear not to mean it but actually inside, I do. Somehow I hope he got the hint. Ya know, somethin like that? But he was actually serious about the things he said tho'. I didn't think he meant it but when he told me he was serious, I was erm... pretty... err... surprised. I thought we only "play-play" ah. But even now, I still wonder if it was true.

It was bcos of the word "if" that I had my doubts. That look on his face and that tone in his voice... sheesh it was scary. The things he said are really sweet sumtimes but well, I have the tendency to fall for sweet-talkers, unfortunately. That's not somethin new...

I told myself never again... but now it's like, "Oh! Not again!". I guess it's only just infatuation. I hope. The possiblities are there, yes, but there're consequences too. I know that if he had given me a chance, I wouldn't mind probably but for how long? It's wrong in the first place... I dun wanna hurt others.

But like they say, love changes everything... love makes you fly and lose your wings... Not to say I'm in love right now, it's just infatuation but if it ever reaches that stage, I'm dead. I dunno about him, but I know I'm done for.

Whatever it is, it takes 2 hands to clap. I hv to admit that yes, I do have feelings for him but it shall stop there for now. Ahh shit, he shouldn't have said those things he said! Damn.



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