Busy, busy, busy. Had our first "rehearsal" today. Was fun! I had a great time. It's been so long since I had done drama again. Can't wait to get into it but I dunno if I can say out the lines on stage later on. It's pretty intimidating... but it's a learning process so it's gd. I learn alot of things and I hope to learn more as I go along.

Tmr, the family is going for a 1-day trip to Melaka to hv a feast. I decided to stay at home and slack. Just slack. Have already planned out my day. Wake up late, do housework, watch tv, read a book and hibernate. Not that it's winter here or anything, but I need to restore all the energy waaat... ya know... 'recuperate'. Heh sure, sure Nadira...

Well, well. Hmm... Mas had triggered my thoughts to the 'sweetheart' again. Maybe what she said was right. The reason he acted the way he did to me was becos I didn't "reciprocate" it. But I couldn't. Once bitten, twice shy. I was being made a fool the last time, and I rather history not repeat itself. She hit me right and made me realise alot of things abt myself tt I didn't know of.

I mean, 'like' is only 'like' right? It will fade anyway... right? It will go. I mean, so what? Not like we can be together anyway. As much as I'm tempted to, I can't afford to. He still doesn't belong to me. He belongs to someone else and that's that. No, no, no... I should just let go. Again. Sigh...

Anyway, life still goes on. I shall keep my options open, haha. I hope I'll find someone worthy of me and can take me as I am. If I'm meant to be with him, then I'm meant to be with him but if not, then it means my "The One" is still out there. Hmm... he must've lost his way but he'll find me sooner or later. I hope.

Shit. Why am I thinking of all this now? Geez, I'm only 21! Ok, snap back to reality now! *smiles sheepishly*

Bleh. *muacks!*



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