I feel so guilty. I really can't remember if I had said all those things. It all happened so fast, I'm not sure if I really had said it. Yes, I know it's over but I can't help but feel so wrong about it. I hv a feeling he's mad at me for "denying" it but I really, really don't remember, and there is a possibility that I could have said it... w/o me realising.

Sigh. Wish I could just apologize right now but I guess I'll just leave him alone first. I am partly to be blamed also lah. Let him cool down first. I'm confused as to what others say about him and what his real intentions are.

Met up with Mas and she did help me sort out my thoughts abit. At least I feel better now. It's hard to hv feelings for someone (tt kind of relationship tt only he and I know) and yet at times, you hv to go against him and at the end, either one gets hurt. And the painful thing is that you hv to pretend like as if nuthin has happened.

Maybe I'm stupid. This is not the first time. But I must hv done sth wrong, else I won't be feeling so bad.

Ok, shall apologize once everythin has simmer down... hv to swallow my pride a bit. At least, I'll feel better and I dun hv to brood over it. I just want everythin to go back to normal... I'll put my feelings aside for now.

This stress is doin me no gd. Pimples are popping out like nobody's business... sigh.



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