I am so lost right now. The future seems so bleak. At least here it seems bleak. I'm worried... I am so restless that I just can't think. I don't even know what I'm thinking. All seems so blur and I don't know what's going on. This company is always full of surprises. I had a near heart attack earlier this morning and I am suspecting another one soon.

And I am beginning to doubt some ppl here. I thought I could trust em but now I'm not so sure. When it comes to survival, it's all about nobody else but yourself. The same goes for work. If you think you could rely on someone, well don't hope for it. You might just be disappointed. It's just a matter of time.

Anyway, we'll see lah. I dunno what else can surprise me. Bring it on man, bring it on! Give me the shock of a lifetime. *sigh*



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