I... really dunno what to say. Thanks for the compliments I guess. I just don't understand how and why. It's ok... I rather not know. Things like this I just rather let it go. For the better.

The feeling is just different when you have a connection with someone and when you don't. I've been hurt before and here I am now, hurting someone else's feelings. Life is unfair but that's the way it is.

Back then, I'm the one who's always at the disadvantage. The one who's always rejected. The one whom you would call the Fool. Maybe that was why I became so cold and I refuse to let anyone do that to me ever again, till the point where I grew skeptical about it. And ever since then I am what I am now. Have always been.

Single but happy. Yes, I joke about wanting to have a boyfriend but I know when the time comes, I just couldn't handle it. I just can't take it. I would in turn laugh about it and brush it off as crappy. Because I think it is. Besides, I'm used to being single. The freedom is just undescribable. Where to find???

I even set up a sorority singles club with a good buddy of mine. Of cos she created it. And who best to partner it with than me right?

It's quite successful actually. The fact that the club still maintained it's loyalty. And we like it that way. The club till now only has 2 members. People tried to enrol but they just can't make it.

People just won't understand us. How we feel about certain things... hard to explain. It takes one to know one. Period.

Now, however, *sigh* it seems as if the tables have turned. But we still stay the same. Still, who knows... if one day she decides to leave the club, I would be happy for her and if she ever decides to come back, the door is always open. I hope the same goes for me as it is for her.

Sigh. Life is an open road. I just hope I don't have to do a lot of detours and deal with alot of traffic. Don't wanna walk under a bus, get hit by a train, keep falling in love, which is kind of the same. Don't wanna sunk out at sea, crash my car, gone insane cos then it feels so good, I would wanna do it again. Hahah. *wink*



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