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Sunday, June 11


Back Again @ 3:00 pm

I have decided that it's about time for me to breakaway from all the drama *envision me singing to Mary J Blige's No More Drama*.

So HELLO WORLD! Sorry for the abrupt hiatus but I needed it, to just calm down and ease my troubled mind (as if it's not screwed up already). My vision is to just be happy and smile always because no matter what, there will always be people bringing you down but these are just obstacles and I've decided to take them in my stride.

I hv friends who care and for that I am thankful. I couldn't thank them enough. During my lowest low, when I broke down, they were there for me while I bawled everything out. They didn't do much but they listened and that is more than enough for me. But I'm sorry I had to put you guys thru all that mess... me flooding the whole of Singapore. Bleh.

What touched me the most was that when one called and asked if I was ok, saying that she had this strong feeling that I wasnt. That really touched me deeply... I didn't know I actually had sent negative vibes all across the country. Thanks, you guys. Really. You know who you are. You guys made me smile. :)

I realise that maybe it was just all in my head. I think I tried too hard to make others happy that I was in fact miserable inside. It's only now that I've come to realise that. What have I impose onto myself till I have faded from all that confetti? The goodness of what life has to offer has became rather blurry at one point of time.

I blame no one but myself.

Whereas for my family, it's a love-hate relationship. It's up to them to realise that I'm a grown up. That's up to them to realise that fact. Now it's always gonna be, "Whatever makes you guys happy ok." I'm too tired to argue over petty matters anymore.

I'd rather be thankful with what God has given me. Syukur alhamdulillah.

Meanwhile, the heart still skips a beat. Still get the shivers. Still suffers from the heart-schtumping once in a while...

IT'S STILL ALIVE!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

P/s: Will be off to Jakarta on Thurs... see you folks when I get back. Behave.




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