*takes multiple deep, deep breaths*

I am so angry right now. My heart is thumping so loud and fast and I'm shaking like I have Parkinson's. Dammit. I dunno why the sudden furiousness. Sometimes I wish I was cold-hearted and then I don't have to feel all of these feelings. But I am only human.

Maybe I do know why I'm feeling this way. It's still there, isn't it. I knew it. Why can't I just get over it? I thought I was done with it but I was oh so wrong. Maybe I really shouldn't care anymore. Frustrating is what it is.

I dunno. I'm just so pissed that all the evil thoughts are swarming my mind. *think happy thoughts, think happy thoughts*

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I'm back on solid ground once more and I am more than happy to be home. To be able to feel both my feet touch the ground, to be precise. I hate flying. The fear is overwhelming that I couldn't stop praying throughout the entire flight. And I couldn't wait for landing. It's the only thing I look forward to. The landing.

Oh the fear, and it doesn't help that the pilot has to comfort us and stoopid kids behind us kept on knocking our seats and making a hell lot of noise. Irritation turned to anger turned to quite a few nice profanities being thrown at them. I gave them a cold stare right in the eye but my aunt went a bit too far tho'. Throughout the 1hr 20 mins, she cursed them and swore at them. I think my ears would've bled. Actually, serves them right too. She was really furious even the parents don't dare say anything but tell those beruks to behave.

Very funny indeed.

Me and my cousin just laughed from behind. Padan muka korang... harharharharhar!

Well, the trip was ok. The massage was good. But I've got bruises all over from all the tumbling down of those water slides. Can't say I'm rejuvenated, can't say I was relaxed but it was a break anyhow. This time I didn't do much thinking, just a lot more praying. Hahah.

That pretty much sums up what I've to say today. Don't feel too good. I've got diarrhoea, and the stomach's feeling a lil bit upset lah. Oh well. I think I'm infatuated enough.



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