Hi. There are so many things I wanna say here but I just dunno how to start. Yesterday I spent the entire last few hours reading Nura's blog (I got her link from Has's blog). I was so fascinated with her blog truthfully because her blog gets you addicted to it. It's raw, honest and absolutely riveting. You just wanna keep on reading and reading every single entry. And that is what I just did. I read EVERY single entry, EVERY single archive. Especially when her journey to married life to motherhood began. Such an optimistic, unpretentious, fun-loving girl and you can tell by reading her blog. Her exuberance for life just seems to ooze out of her entries without her even trying.

I wish I could be like her. Minus all that hair and makeup, glitz and glamour of course. I particularly enjoyed reading her entries during and after her pregnancy period. And, again, I wish I could be like her. Happy.

- Loving and expressive family
- Loving husband
- A rewarding and fun career
- A baby girl
- Her own home
- Young and successful

No wonder she's happy.

Me, I think my job now is bringing me down. I hate what I'm doing and I hv to put up with it for 4 yrs or so, just so I can hv a better future. LATER. On top of that, now I hv to wake up damn bloody early at 5.30 am, reach office at 7 am, work (or rot, whatever you call it) for 12.5 bloody hrs and THEN call it a day. After which I can't really do anything much but anticipate my off days.

Ok, I just can't stand having to wake up SO EARLYYYYYYYYYYYY!!! *bawls out loud* My sleeping disorder just became worse eversince I became a planner.

Alrite, shall fight the devil within and strive to change this very ugly attitude of mine.

First, MUST perform my utmost duties as a muslim. GOD, I need your light and guidance. Ameen.
Second, quit procrastinating, I must.
Third, must exercise regularly so I can stay healthy, active and sleep better.
Fourth, save money and be happy no matter what.

Better late than never. I just hope tt when I die, I die dalam iman, sebagai orang yg beriman. Ameen. I hv to keep in mind that this world is only temporary and not to fall for Satan's sweet nothings and temptations.

I think life is simple. HE has paved our lives to be simple. Only we make it difficult and complicated. It's so easy and yet it's so difficult to do. Just do what's right and keep away from the wrongs. It's that simple.

Everything we do, there's a right and there's a wrong. But it's always easier to do the wrong than to do the right. Right? We always find it difficult to do the right thing. And then we complain that our lives are not blessed with happiness and joy.

And I know I've done more wrong things than right. I'm ashamed of myself sometimes. Well, I'm gonna try and change that about my life. Easier said than done but one step at a time. I've never stopped trying and I'm not about to stop now.

HIS blessings come in disguises and often not, in simple ways. But being the greedy beings tt we are, we're nvr satisfied and always asking for more. Sad but true. :( GOD, forgive us all.

DO THE RIGHT THING. I. Have. To. Keep. That. In. Mind. Always.



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