It's been a while. Been busy with assignments lately, staying up late till Subuh. So I greeted the 1st day of Ramadhan as well. It has been good so far. Unfortunately, I had to be back at work. Again. Once more. Blahdy blah...

Life as a working adult cum part-time student is no doubt tough. In fact, life as an adult is tough as it is. When you embark on this journey, you know you're gonna face all these obstacles and you see all the responsibilities lie ahead of you. It's not like you chose to be one but that path has already been paved for you right from the very minute you were conceived in your mother's womb. It's inevitable.

I dunno how many times I've fallen flat on my face and then having to pick myself up only to fall again. It's a vicious cycle. Before every fall is a hurdle and if you pass that hurdle, then you ought to be proud of yourself becos you made it that far.

I am still learning. It's hard to imagine what I've put myself into. I look back thinking tt I wouldn't hv wanted to study anymore after poly. And now? Now I'm in uni and sometimes I wonder if I will ever make it thru but that's up to me to decide. I nvr thot tt I'll be continuing my studies but heck I did, and this is whr it all begins.

I'm back to meeting deadlines but this time, it's a serious thing. I wanna achieve (hahahaha)... since when did I ever care about school? Now, it's either you give yr all or you dun gv at all. Mentality has changed, prob more challenged and competitive now. Passing is one thing, achieving gd grades is another. And I choose to opt for the latter. If I hv to push myself tt hard, I will becos when I get the results, I wanna feel good and I wanna scream my lungs out. That's when I know I've done well...

And for once, I'm doin sth I enjoy. For once, I love school. I'm not studious or a nerd now, I'm still the same. A lil laziness still gets in the way. Heh. Now if only there is a way to clone myself... I'll put one of me at work and the real one can get some slp at home.

I still wonder what I'll be when I "grow up". But I know one thing's for sure. After I earn tt desired profession, am stable and if I'm still single, I will fulfill my ultimate dream... of becoming a mother. Yes, I will adopt. Insya-allah... I just hope I'm not 60 when I reach there. No need to adopt already lah, I'll just wait for the grave. But who knows, my sibs will all remain single and then we can all grow old together... How nice. Just like the Golden Girls - minus the Miami Beach. Darn it.

Well, we can only plan, it is HE who will determine our future. After all, this world we live in is only temporary.......



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