Right when I'm feeling so down and depressed, there's nobody around. This thought of quitting is getting stronger and stronger each day. Every time I'm at work, I'll be thinking of quitting. I'll go online and look for jobs. I know I wanna work with kids and not with bloody morons. I think one day I might just go insane.

I'll go crazy, that I know. I dunno how I manage to maintain my composure but it's running real low with every waking moment. Everytime I walk past the childcare centre at the airport, I wished that I could just drop by inside to spent some time with the kids. One day, I got that golden opportunity. I was so excited, it could possibly be the best time I've ever had in the airport. I went it, I mingled with the kids and they came to me like as if they knew me. I wanted to hold them in my arms, all of them. I wanted to stay there but sad to say, I had to leave. But that few minutes left me smiling the whole day and until today. That few minutes made my day..... that was when I knew that somehow, someway I've got to get out of this place and work with kids.

They're so innocent and curious which makes it all the more fun. They're so eager to learn and are always jumpy and happy. So how can you possibly be miserable in such an environment where you can only wonder and watch in awe at their silly antics tt will tickle your bones? Even if they get on yr nerves, you know you will nvr hold any grudges against them cos they'll make you love them even more.....'

Take my beloved cousins for example. I love them to bits, to death. And I would purposely travel all the way there just to spend the day with them. If I could, I would pack all my clothings and rent a room there just to be with them. What else could you ask for? So I really can't wait for Hari Raya to come cos then they'll all be gathered at my place. I am only looking forward to that day.

And nothing else.



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