I hate work. I still hate work. Talked to mum and I think she could tell how despondent I was with it. But I could tell by the look in her eyes tt she understood. And tt is enough to comfort me. :)

Friends and loved ones help keep the miseries at bay and bring in the joy and laughter. I sayang you all you know.

Tears won't make problems go away. Angst won't solve anything. Silence won't say anything. I won't leave a trace here. I've persevered as much as I could and I'm very afraid tt one day I'll give in and leave. For so long, I've tolerate it all. Tried to be strong but I dunno if I could go on like this anymore. The heart says pack and go but the head says stay. Who's gonna pay for yr sch fees? Who's gonna support the family once yr parents decides to retire? Who's gonna pay the bills? What will he say? I really wanna go...

On a happier note, a gd fren of mine will be stepping into a new phase soon. How time flies. If all goes well, she'll be engaged this yr. Then get married, then apply a flat! Of all the 3, applying for a flat is the most exciting one for me. I'll prob skip the 1st 2 phases and go to 3 anyway.

Plans... so many plans. I need a break. Can't wait for that trip Ayu. I can't wait...



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