I got a splitting headache last night and my body was burning hot that I couldn't sleep... The head was throbbing like crazy as if someone was pounding on my head with a sledge hammer. Just when I was about to fall asleep, dunno who's stupid alarm clock decided to ring at 5.15 am. 5 bloody 15 am!

Oh my God, I thought I was going crazy. But the temperature had gone down. I don't know if I had even slept that night. I was contemplating whether or not to go to work and freeze myself to death. Needless to say, like programmed, I made my way to Changi Airport.

Something is not right. Yes yes, these days everything's not right. But I realised this morning my weight has dropped drastically and it frightens me. This is not normal. Then I remembered I didn't eat dinner or supper last night. Again, not normal. Because I normally eat alot at home. But instead I went straight to bed and curled myself up and hide beneath the comforter. My appetite has gone wrong and I hate being skinny.

I can never understand why girls wanna be super skinny. Skinny's not good, not healthy ok. Slim and healthy is fine, super skinny not fine ok girls? You look under-nourished as if suffering from malnutrition. What's so good about looking skeletal? A little meat won't hurt... and all my meat is gone. 11 months to gain all that necessary fat and within a month, all of that is gone. And I feel so weak. Not right... not right.

I got a message yesterday and I felt like throwing the phone at him. Who does he think he is? Why you bother? WHY you bother? Next time DON'T BOTHER.

&@#$%



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