Just as I thought and expected. She is mad at me. I know she will be. I told her this morning and she scolded me. I think I well deserved it. Mother, I know you're disappointed with me. I am with myself too but this is something I've always wanted all my life. You wouldn't understand. But I don't blame you ok. I still love you. :)

I guess I'm used to it anyway. I saw it coming. No doubt it dampens my mood but this kinda thing takes determination and strong will. It's not gonna be easy for me either. I'll eat healthily for now so that it works faster. That way, hopefully, it will cure in less than 6 months.

And Ydah, it's not your fault either. So don't you feel guilty about it. It will pass before we know it. The good thing is... we can embark on a healthier diet together! Whee! Isn't that fantabulous?!

Sigh.

On a happier note! Well... there isn't any actually. Oh wait... this Sunday will be going to see Agil so he should do the trick. But not sure if I wanna go actually. Trying to save every penny I have left.

He msged me last night before he left. What a buffoon. Let it go man. Accept the fact that I'm not going to entertain you anymore. Hi and goodbye. That's all. Whether you're going back to your home or coming back or leaving, I really couldn't care less you know.

It's a vicious cycle. To get over someone, you have to have someone new. And everytime you have someone new, you worry if it's going to end up like the previous one. And it just goes on like that until you find the right one.

What a pain.

Tonight I shall go marketing. To get some fresh veges and fruits to make salads. If I have to eat healthily, I might as well make it taste good too...

Oh bummer.



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