I don't think I've ever been more disappointed in my life before. It's sad when your own parents doesn't recognise your efforts. To think they don't even know I'm in a university. And it's not a private school dammit! Yes maybe not as fancy as NUS or NTU or SMU for that matter, but...

Gosh, I didn't know I was so badly affected by this. I think I tried too hard and too much for trying to impress my dad but he just doesn't realise that! He doesn't even know! God, how much that frustrates me.

I was crestfallen when I saw their reactions earlier, it felt like I was slapped across the face. I thought they would be proud of me... well apparently not, I can see that now.

Can't believe he just kept quiet when I spoke up. Just kept quiet! Can you believe that? But he can go on and on about my sister. On and on... He's not even interested because I have already disappointed him before. He's not interested in what I do now.

And my cousin's so-called achievement. Yah, wait till you know she's a sex maniac. Then you can decide ok. And he can say, "Oh, business course is good." Yadda yadda yadda but I've never heard him say that Psychology is good. Psychology doesn't exist in their orthodox dictionary. I guess I'm not the typical goody-two-shoes and I'm too liberal for their own good. Ahh you know what, I simply cannot be bothered.

I even have colleagues/friends who laughed at me when they learned I took up Psychology. Thanks ah. I'll prove it to you someday that I can make it and I can tell you, I won't be here in Singapore but in fact, I'll be overseas making my mark. It's ok... I rather be doing this for myself than for anybody else because it's simply not worth it.

I'm not gonna give up just because you think I'm a failure because I know I'm not.



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