Oh goodness sake, I am so tired. My eyes have eyebags and dark circles are forming already. I feel like my eyes are swollen. And today? Worse! I dunno what had gotten into me that I decided to put on mascara and now my eyes feel so heavy, I could hardly keep em peepers open.

(I don't apply mascara unless I feel like applying mascara SO I guess I must've felt like applying it on that's why I applied it this morning. Hhmmmmmm...)

Initially, I was so keen on being hospitalised. It's like a bloody resort lah. Nobody to disturb you and all. But then after all the horrid details my sis told me, I tak jadi lah. I dislike the idea of being molested, even if it's by a woman. It's like intruding into my privacy. No no no no.

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I'm tired of work. Really I am. It feels so pointless but where money is concern, I can't really complain much. I need it so therefore, I will have to put up with it.

And people have been telling me that I've lost weight. I feel like I've lost half of myself. And that feeling is sickening. I feel so lembik. And I will hate it even more if people think I'm anorexic when truly, I just have high metabolism rate, all you jealous skinny-skeletal-bony freaks.

Don't get me wrong here. Those who are overweight hence they resort to these tactics, I can understand why. But those who are already so paper-thin... what weight you wanna lose?!?!?! No fats left already, I can tell you that. Only left with skin and bones.

But of course, I do know what's going on since this is my area. Just that when I'm not in my student mode, I am like any other 'sane' human beings like you guys. Cheh stylo-milo, I feel like I have split personalities.

Anyway, none of my friends or family members has ever put me in that category because they know I eat like a pig. And I'm proud of it, thank you.



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