Occasionally, usually after a big fight or a tiff, I would think that I have failed as a big sister. I'm suppose to be a mentor, a good example, a teacher, a confidante, a friend to my younger siblings. I would blame myself for the way they had turned out to be. Because, somewhere along the way, I must've not given him or her that undivided attention that he or she should have rightly received from me.

And that's the reason why she grew to be quite distant from us (or just me, maybe) and became quite a revolter at times. Sometimes it can be so scary, that we feel she should really go for some serious anger management.


(Kidding lah! I wouldn't trade her for anything else.)

Of course, this happens in every household and alot of times, we just brush it off and things will somehow resume to its normal state as tho' nothing ever happened. Sometimes, at the dinner table, we can even talk about it and laugh it off.

But that is not always the case.

I realise I should have known better. What happens at home and outside does affect the person as an individual. And those close to them can be of dramatic influence - good or bad. Even more so, when he or she is still growing and in the pre-teen to adolescent stage.

Even TIME agrees with me...

But of course, I know that she's just going through that phase. She probably thinks that I don't know her well enough but trust me, I know her inside out.

Probably because I saw my little angsty self in her. I know she's going through some emotional strife. However, unlike me, she's more sociable and that actually makes her more prone to such discords. And she let her anger get the better of her.


(Yes, war between us siblings is like a tradition in my home. Must have one.)

Everybody's been hurt but Rose Kennedy said, time heals all wounds.

On the contrary, I watched Criminal Minds on Tuesday and Dr. Spencer Reid (the bloody genius) said, "It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, (protecting its sanity), covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But, it is never gone. "

I agree.



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