Lately I've been thinking about this. Whether I should do something about it or not. Should I just leave it as it is or take a chance? I wanna take that risk but I'm too proud to do so. I don't wanna succumb to such hassle unnecessarily. Why would I wanna put myself through such a detrimental phase, right?

At times, I feel I should give it a go but then again, I'm too cautious and too skeptical. Pride and ego could be the cause of it but whatever. Someone once said to me that she doesn't wanna be attached to anybody if she could. No "he's-my-boyfriend" or "she's-my-girlfriend" kinda thing. No strings attached, no sense of belonging to anyone at all.

As much as I say I'm fine being single and free - and I really don't mind it all - at times, I will be thinking, wouldn't it be nice to have someone to call your own... And be proud of it, of course.

But alas, it is just a thought.

A passing thought that will cloud me for a moment, get me in a dreamlike state and then evaporates a second after. Cheh.

That person also said, "You expect him to drop from the sky and appear right in front of you ah?" Actually she's not the only one who said it... many have said it too. And I'll meekly reply, "Yah."

Really what! Don't everybody expect that? Ok, I'm just plain lazy lah ok. And I get bored easily too. Ai, this is bad.

Know what motivates me? A holiday with my other couple friends! Else, I won't even bother. Nevermind, you people won't understand. Only certain individuals would. Ahaha.

A---nyway, like they always say... don't find trouble until trouble finds you. My social life has been on a long pause, I realise. I don't even have anyone to dwell on anymore.

It's a good thing right? Free of heartaches, worries, whines and feeling all pissed off because he can't read signs. Dumbos.

Ok lah, this is what the gatal me is feeling currently so don't take me seriously.

P/s: Maybe I should not deliberate and analyze so much the next time around ey... if there is a next time in the first place.



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