I just had a passing thought. It helps that he's there to distract me. Yes, I shift very easily indeed. It's not stupid they say, it's just a waste of energy. So very true.

Right now, I'm just idling. Thinking of what to do. Can't possibly do my report cos he's around. Just right beside me. He's supposed to be on MC. Like I said... supposed. Oh well.

Anyways, the brain is momentarily down right now. So can't process any information I read so what's the point? My thinking cap is not working either. Brain, you really can't break down now you know. I need you. The last assignment... come on... Surely you can come up with something? Anything???

Ok. I'm at the brink of losing my mind.
Maybe I'm selective. Maybe I'm too hard on myself. Maybe I'm too independant. Maybe I cannot make it. Maybe I love my free-and-easy status too much to care but so what? I really don't care lah. Why is it that people around me are bothered when I'm not? *laughs* Take it easy ok you guys.

Even the radio agrees with me. No kidding, some band is singing "Take it eeeeeeeeeeeaaassssyyyyyyyyyyyy..."

When someone decides to be with me, for some weird reason that I myself couldn't comprehend, I will announce it here and to the entire universe ok? Sounds fair? Good.

I know you all will be happy for me and at the same time, feel sorry for the poor guy. Why he decides to be with a living nightmare will be a mystery that will unfold should it ever happen.

For now, all I want is Eeteuk and sleep. Which is impossible at this moment.

*sobs*



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