I presume that today was gonna be a bad day cos today marks the 1st day of a week or so of torture and bleeding. If you know what I mean... if you don't, I'm talking about menses. Yes, it started out with me having a bad tummy ache then in school I had cramps. Terrible cramps. Something I'm very scared of cos I have very bad cramps. Then went to the toilet and it came flowing before I even had the chance to put the damn pad on. Freak.

Stained my underwear and I had to get my friend to buy the disposable ones which cost $3.75. Bloody expensive, dammit. Missed 1/2 hr of my lesson cos I was stuck in the toilet while waiting for my friend to get back with the disposables. Sat on the toilet bowl till my legs got cramped and all I could do was to just stare at the 4 planks of wood that make a cubicle.

As I was waiting, I took my stained underwear and looked at it. I was so sad. There was nothing else to do but to throw it away. And so I took sheets of toilet paper and wrapped it up. That was one of my favourite underwear ya know. And I had to dump it in the dustbin. Now it's probably on it's way to the big dumpster to be recycled into God knows what... Sad, so sad. And it's so freaking uncomfortable now.

Later I'm dropping by my aunt's house for a massage. I really need it. My neck's gonna come off anytime now.



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